Archive | November, 2010

Panic attack?

15 Nov

It won’t come as a surprise to you that I’m feeling a little swamped at the moment.  I’ve been banging on about it explaining my workload to anyone who will listen friends, family and Twitter chums endlessly quite a lot recently!

Last night as I went to bed things reached a rather unfortunate head.  I was already exhausted after a few horrendous nights with Aidan (it now seems he has a horrible cold which may explain things) so should have been asleep before my head hit the pillow. What happened instead was worrying.

As my head hit the pillow I was suddenly assaulted by an enormous feeling of panic about all the things I wanted to accomplish over the coming week.  As the list grew, one major deadline loomed large – 2 weeks until my exams.  My revision has not been going well and I feel like I’ll be heading into the exam room only being able to write my name, student number and perhaps perform the necessary journal entries.  For someone who never normally gets stressed out about exams this is odd.

I tried to tell myself to switch off, go to sleep and that things would seem better in the morning but it wasn’t working.  I began almost gasping for breath, my chest got tight and an overwhelming feeling of claustrophobia hit me, so much so that I had to get out of bed and walk around for a few minutes until it passed.

Once it passed I decided to do a spot of lurking on Twitter (or ‘dogging’ as I have been known to refer to it in the past!) and then read a few chapters of a free iBook just to change my train of thought.  This worked and I was soon asleep but this morning I’m wondering, was this a panic attack?  Could I have managed it better and how can I prevent it happening again?


Errr…what happened to October?

1 Nov

So, my last post was 30th September.  That’s just shoddy blogmanship!

October was a crazy busy month and, whilst I can’t pretend that November is going to be relaxed (2 exams 1st week of December anyone?), I should have a bit more free time, especially in the evenings, for things that I actually want to do, like blogging!

I’ve got a few ideas swirling around in my head for future posts and I still haven’t written up one for Aidan’s 2nd birthday – maybe I’ll get it up just before his 3rd birthday!!!

Anyway, just wanted to say hello and that I’m still alive and will be posting again very very soon!